Reflecting

Hello!

How are you today?

Can you believe that this entire decade is almost done? It literally feels like it has been a long year though at the same time it went by so quickly within a blink of an eye.

There’s so much to look back on to see what needs to change along with acknowledging the good things I’ve accomplished. One thing I can point out is the fact that I can surely learn how to prioritize the things in my life along with the projects I want to create. For example, I really want to add this blog to my priority list because as much as I truly enjoy writing and sharing all of the things that are on my mind I just can’t find the time to sit down then share it with you.

I am hoping that within the next year I can come up with a schedule to keep myself organized whilst I find time to work on my future projects.

Another thing is putting in more effort into learning how to properly edit my photos in Adobe. I feel like I know a thing or two, but I need to teach myself how to get so much better at it so I can feel proud of the photos I want to share. Lately, I have not been feeling proud of the photographs I’ve been taking and because of that my page has been quiet. I am really determined to stay on track to actually make a change with my everyday habits.

Now, let’s get to the bottom of the not-so-good things. Earlier this year I took the step into reaching out for help…I started going to therapy. For a while things were great I felt comfortable talking to my therapist she was an incredible and honest woman. But after a month or so I stopped going. One of the reasons I stopped is because at the time things were actually going good for me. I really felt like I was wasting her time because there wasn’t much going on in my life.

As time passed that is when karma started biting me back. Things from my personal life were taking a very hectic turn. My mind wouldn’t stop thinking of all of the horrendous worse case scenarios whilst my intrusive thoughts were becoming a lot more violent which honestly was starting to scare me. I wish I didn’t stop going. I think now is the time where I feel like I need to talk to someone about the events that have been happening just to get it off of my chest.

I need to make a promise to myself to go back and try to accept the help I am being given.

Apart from all of this, I am really proud of how far my stories have come. In this year alone I am realizing how much closer I am into putting this series to rest and probably take the next step into taking the leap and just share it. Until then I am going to enjoy every second of it while I still can.

Please take care of yourself. In this coming decade, we will take the chance to create the best version of ourselves. We will become the kind of people we needed when we were younger. This life is so rare and we should take every moment to enjoy the little things.

Thank you for sticking around. I genuinely appreciate all of you!

Take care!

Viv