Oh man, how are we already halfway through the year?
It’s seems so unreal how fast time has been flying by I feel like we’re all growing up too fast these days. There are times when I wish time would be generous enough to let me live in the moment when I feel the happiest…unfortunately, everyone knows how cruel this thing called “time” can be.
Anywho! I’d like to give an update on how I’ve been feeling lately!
I had mentioned in some previous blog posts I have been suffering from depression, anxiety, paranoia, and other wonderful stuff for about 8 years now although I haven’t been feeling “myself” for most of my life I have been having such a hard time talking to people. I’m a horribly shy person I really think that I don’t have the courage to be able to talk to any strangers because of my anxiety telling me all the things I don’t want to hear.
Why do you make things so awkward?
Do you think they can tell we’re awkward?
Stop bothering them! Can’t you see that they’d rather be talking to someone else?!
I mean I’ve been trying to become more open, but jeez it’s so damn hard! I struggle most with trying to keep up a conversation. Small talk I honestly can’t do I like having deep conversations about anything at all!
Although there’s one thing I noticed about myself the fact that I kind of feed off other people’s energy. Meaning if I am around with someone who has so much energy and happy “vibes” then that’s when I feel like I then become comfortable with the person.
As of right now, I feel like my mental health has been getting so much better! I think that I have found the point in my life where I have never felt so content.
I’m not a perfect person and I don’t think I will ever be but with every good feeling I get there always that one day that brings me down. No one can avoid a bad day but the thing about Positive Mental Attitude (PMA) is that it stands for more than trying to put on a brave face and enjoy life’s moments but if you have a bad day it’s okay! You take that bad day and own it! Learn from your mistakes, understand your thoughts in that moment.
Don’t be afraid to tell someone how you’ve been feeling.
This one was short and simple (like me) but of course I do hope you are all doing well or getting better!
It’s been a while since I got something posted but I’ve been pretty busy with work I didn’t have much time to come on here and share what I had on my mind. But other than that I wish you all a good week!