Raison D’être (n): the most important reason or purpose for someone or something’s existence.
Just that single phrase I’ve kept it very close to me for this past year. These past few months have been changing me for the better! I have been realizing who I am and the looking at the person I should be. Normally, I feel like I need to be the person I needed when I was younger, which led to this new creation I like to call “Vivian G. Glitchet”
Vivian to me is more than a pen-name. This name has given me the opportunity to show the world a new side of me while letting me share the stories I have been writing for the past seven or so years, which hopefully sometime in the future can be ready to publish. Not only that, the name has also given me a different perspective of myself I see someone who is confident in what I put out there such as photos I have been taking professionally, writing short stories or novels, and of course letting my thoughts spill onto these blogs.
Share the stories even if there is a chapter we don’t read aloud (I think that you’re not as dark as you want people to believe). Find your raison d’être, create your own stories, discover those multiple endings, and live that happily ever after because I believe that almost every single person deserves to be happy. Be able to find that reason for being alive whether it is spreading love and positivity to those you care about or being an explorer of this tiny planet.
However; like many people, throughout my life I have been pondering the question of my existence.
Why am I here?
What was I created to do?
Am I doing what is right?
So far I don’t know. But one thing I do know is that after all of these obstacles that I’ve been overcoming I have bounced back so much stronger than when I started. My eyes may have shed so many tears for so many different reasons, but you wouldn’t believe how happy and relaxed my brain feels at the moment.
But of course when the time when I feel the happiest something ALWAYS has to go wrong it’s kind of making me feel guilty for being happy. I told my older sister about this and all she says that, “you shouldn’t feel guilty for being happy because no matter what comes and goes we’re always going to be here to support each other.”
Maybe all I needed was a change of scenery to help get my mental health back in working order. Little did I know that I was my own biggest villain since I’ve had a tendency of thinking I am always bothering people or that I am always standing in the way. Though people tell me it’s alright.
But something has changed I now feel so alive!